If you know me or have been following me for quite some time, you may think that I’m outgoing, nothing short of a social butterfly. I’m that person on social media who will post a lot and get lost in writing long captions because I have a lot to say—I feel strongly about things and truly enjoy engaging with others. At events or nights out, I’m usually the one laughing to the point where I’m in tears or the one dancing around the room with a drink in hand…but that’s from the outside looking in.
I’m an introvert.
While this is old news, it is still something that I don’t think a lot of people fully understand about me or the other introverts in their life so I am making it a point to write about it more. People hear “introvert” and y’know, the only type that exists is the one that is anti-social and gets crippling anxiety around people.
For me, being an introvert is a lot of things but it mainly boils down to where I get my energy from and what takes too much energy for me to do. I used to be the type of person who felt the need to say “yes” to everything and everyone. I couldn’t stand the thought of disappointing someone or not being a part of something. It was a mix of “FOMO” and not being able to say no. Ever.
I enjoy social gatherings in the moment but always pay for it later (especially when events are back to back). I need time to recover and recharge. With learning to say no to some things and saying yes to others, I’m finding that I am more energized instead of always running on empty. I have found more balance in my life, both at home and socially. Don’t get me wrong, I love the time spent with friends and family but I excel and feel like my best self when I am in the comfort of my own home. I am not mad, sad, depressed, or anti-social.
It just means I need a break from feeling like I have been pulled far too thin and that should be okay.
Photo courtesy of: Brooke Michelle
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